Konting Tiis Pa

Habang nasa Manila kami, nakareceive ako ng disturbing text galing kay Ruth. Hindi raw ako nakapagpass ng Labradoodle articles ko kay Miss Mabelle.

Langya! Nagpass ako noon talaga. As in nakita ko pang nag message sent ang Gmail.

Inasayn na din yung apat na articles na yun sa ibang writers dahil hindi raw ako makontak. Hay naku. Naiinis akong hindi ko maintindihan. Kasi, imbes na ako ang sinabihan ni Miss Mabelle, ay si Ruth pa.

Akala ko, nagjojoke lang si Miss Mabelle. Pinacheck ko kay Ruth yung email account ko at... wala daw talaga akong sinend! OMG!

Bigla kong naalala yung araw na yun. Wala pa akong matinong tulog nung Saturday night at kinailangan ko pang gumising nang maaga nung Sunday morning para lang matapos lahat ng freelance obligations ko bago pumuntang Manila. Care na kung may eyebag ako sa first airplane experience ko basta matapos ko lang lahat yun. Pero...

Nanghina na lang ako habang iniisip ko yung lampas limang oras kong pagsusulat ng mga articles. Sana, tinulog ko na lang yun. Blooming sana ako sa first airplane experience ko.

Pero, habang tumatagal, natatanggap ko na rin ang kapalaran ko. Mapupunta lang sa wala yung mga articles na naisulat ko. Sayang din ng P480. Huhuhuhuhu! Hay. Time to move on na talaga at isipin ko na lang kung ano ang the best na dapat kong gawin.

At nang nakauwi na nga kami at nagkaroon na ng kalinawan ang isip ko para mag-email, eto ang ini-email ko:

Dear Miss Mabelle,


I apologize for the mess brought by the unsent Labradoodle articles.

I was also surprised when Ruth texted me that you did not receive the articles. I'm really sure that GMail posted, "Your email has been sent." I still can't figure out what happened. My suspicion is that my Internet got disconnected while sending the articles.
Perhaps my fault was when I did not check the articles in the Sent Mail folder. I don't really do that because I'm confident when GMail said that my email was already sent.
I'm really, really sorry.
Attached with this email are my Labradoodle articles. I just want to prove that I wrote the articles last March 8, 2009. But I know that this will not be included in the inventory anymore. I understand that.
Also, this is my number so you can contact me in cases like this: 09279511490. Here's my husband's contact number in case you can't reach mine: 09187661232.
I believe we can always do something about any concerns we have. And I also believe that I would have been able to send the articles if I only knew that they were not really sent.
Again, my apologies.
Thank you and God bless!



Romalyn


Eto naman ang sinabi ni Miss Mabelle:

Romalyn,



The topics were redistributed to the other writers as I did not receive any response from you. Next time, please make sure that the files were attached/sent especially if you're going to be out for a vacation. I hope this would be the last as I might be forced to let yo go if this happens again.



Regards,

Mabelle

Bigla na namang nag-init ang ulo ko. Pero, inisip kong maraming beses na akong napahamak at maraming beses na din akong nagsisi na nagpapadala ako sa init ng ulo ko. Hindi ko na muna nireplyan yung email. Ano naman kasi ang sasabihin ko? Gusto kong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko dahil hindi ko naman talaga kasalanan lahat ng nangyari. May kasalanan din man siya, di ba? Kaso, baka mawalan ako ng kumikitang kabuhayan kung magpapadala ako sa pagka-ini ko. Kaya, naghintay muna akong lumamig ang ulo ko bago ko binasa ulit.

Nung binalikan ko yung email nya, ganun pa rin pakiramdam ko. Naiinis pa rin ako. At eto na ang tinype ko:

Thanks for the chance.

I want to clarify that we did not go to Manila for a "vacation." It was a confirmatory exam for my son's NBS result.

I also want to clarify that my only fault was when I did not check if the articles were sent or attached properly.

This mess could have been resolved easier if you texted me about the matter instead of emailing me. You already have my number and YM or Chikka allows texting for free. I can always ask Ruth or one of my other close friends to send you the articles if ever you did that. I would have done my best to resolve the matter, but the problem is, you never did your best to communicate with me.

I know, it was difficult for your part to ask another writer to make the articles. It was also hard for me to let go of those articles especially that I sacrificed some hours of rest to write those articles.

Yes, I have a lot of flaws. I did a lot of stupid things--passed articles late and attached wrong files. You can terminate me now if you think that I'm already worthless, useless, or unproductive for the team.

But maybe, in a way or another, I did something right or something good for the team. Maybe somehow, you were pleased of some of my articles or my performance. But I never knew that. Because all I know is when I did something stupid again.

If not only for my need to earn, I would have left the team already. Nagtitiis lang ako.

Terminate me now if you have enough reasons to do so. I will accept that as a blessing in disguise.

Hopefully, other writers don't feel the way I do.

God bless to you and thank you.



Care na kung mawalan ng trabaho basta maipagtanggol ko lang ang sarili ko. Kaya, yun, sinend ko na rin...

Sinend ko ang:


Thanks for the chance.

God bless!

Hahahahaha! Less talk less mistake kasi. Hehehehhehe! Nagpakahirap pa akong magcompose ng mahabang email, yan lang naman pala ang isesend ko.

Ang totoo, feeling better ako na two-sentence reply lang ang ginawa ko. Alam kong hindi ko naman talaga kasalanan lahat, pero, may kasalanan pa rin ako. Kaya, gagawin ko na lang lahat ng best ko kahit na hindi gawin ni Miss Mabelle ang best nya. At least, may trabaho pa.

Pero, pinagiisipan ko na ring magresign sa kanya. Kailangan lang na sigurado akong may kumikitang kabuhayan pa rin ako kahit umalis ako sa kanya. Besides, feeling ko eh, wala na talaga akong kwenta sa grupo dahil madalas akong pumalpak. Nagtitiis na lang talaga ako.

Hay... at eto na naman ako: Konting tiis pa, Arcee!